Tales of Life-Desu. ^_^

Finished a presentation yesterday and an exam today. I wanna clear out enough of my schedule, I wanna take her out somewhere.

It doesn’t matter that she looks good in a dress, that her hair flutters in the wind, the books she reads or the way she smells in the springtime. None of that matters if she doesn’t know what she wants for herself. She needs to know what she wants for herself, I guess that’s what I want from her the most.

Wherever you are.

We went around the table, discussing what we feared the most. Standard answers, snakes, spiders, insects, death.

I could not answer, I honestly don’t know what I truly fear and I don’t know whether or not this is okay. But later that night I knew what I feared the most. Attachment and Love, what kind of fear is that?

What happened yesterday I didn’t expect, I was feeling quite exhausted from Eric’s movie marathon on Sat and spent that evening watching episodes of Qi and playing Pokemon with Gino.

What happened on Sunday was worse, I laid in bed for a good 12 hours, I didn’t exactly get up until around 1 pm -Mind you I was fully conscious and just refused to move, not even for the prospect of some training. I couldn’t think straight and I was asking people if it was okay to think of her this much, I was lovestunned if that’s a word.

I couldn’t get her out of my head and all I could do was think of her all day, I wanted to call, text, contact her somehow but I had to use restraint. As much as I like her, as much as I want to see her again, there’s a border between assertion and just plain weird. So instead I spent the day playing Pokemon Conquest, reading articles and just trying my hardest to not think of her.

She drains me so much but I would give anything just to see her again.

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