I seriously feel that I owe it to my family for the person that I’ve become, they’ve shaped how I perceive, my beliefs and what drives me to be a better person. At times I have fallen short of the tasks given to me and I do regret those moments but they are still my number one priority when it comes to my decision making.
Often times I make decisions concerning the house, improvements and repairs, I supervise and ask questions like any curious person would. At the same time I’d love to just kick back and play video games, but I understand my responsibility as perhaps it’s not a simple job and knowing how this works the person will need assistance.
Other times I take time for myself, to recharge, to study, to ensure that my future goals are met within ranges that I find are acceptable. I’m learning to become disciplined, to become someone who embraces responsibility, understands it and realises the possible repercussions of them. My freedom is directly tied to the respect I give my parents and the tasks they outline me. I see no reason to rebel from their care, to act unruly for no clear reason but to just act unruly. I’m constantly being asked to take time away from my responsibilities at the most inopportune times and it infuriates me.
I’m told that I lack the assertiveness to approach a woman, yet my duties teach me discipline, it teaches me to understand responsibilities and to honor those responsibilities. I’m happy to release myself from responsibilities and take a break, to relax and to do things for myself, but soon enough I will return to my old dutiful ways and respect the power in this household, respect and be respected is the general rule in the house.
Perhaps it’s just this one person who’s so insistent that I relieve myself of responsibilities to play games. It just doesn’t seem appropriate and most people understand that my family is one of the most important things to me. My duties will not be overridden once begun, I complete them to the finest of my ability and I hope this translates to everything else.
Don’t try to pry me away from this.