Tales of Life-Desu. ^_^

I like Winter because I feel bigger than I normally do and I always feel like I could charge through a wall. In summer and most of the year I feel really tiny and I can’t hide under jumpers and scarves.

Today’s a rain day, sadly no skates will be had. But this gives me an excuse to rug up. I might look for gloves during my break or something. I need new gloves.

The most serious run I’ve undertaken since my injury was today. A 10K run at the Sydney Motorsport Park was fairly intense. The gradient changes, the weather and overall my lack of training these past weeks all contributed to the hardest thing I’ve done as of yet. My legs are exhausted, I think I developed a small cough and I don’t expect to be able to get out of bed tomorrow morning.

The exhilaration of running alongside people all focused on one thing is something new and I look forward to doing it again in August. There’s only so many months and I need to train so I won’t struggle as much.

Running 10k tomorrow and watching peeps get beat up with swords and lances afterwards. May use as much free time after to power through my assessments.

Balance. Everyone needs balance.

Going to the data recovery place to get a quote, skate shop is in the locality and they have new gloves in the shop. Do I need new gloves? Probably not, do I want them because they look pretty? Maybe.

Should I probably buy a new hoodie first? Most likely. I think I may just pop into the skate shop just so I can get some repairs and replacements. Really been aching for some new hardware.

I seriously feel that I owe it to my family for the person that I’ve become, they’ve shaped how I perceive, my beliefs and what drives me to be a better person. At times I have fallen short of the tasks given to me and I do regret those moments but they are still my number one priority when it comes to my decision making.

Often times I make decisions concerning the house, improvements and repairs, I supervise and ask questions like any curious person would. At the same time I’d love to just kick back and play video games, but I understand my responsibility as perhaps it’s not a simple job and knowing how this works the person will need assistance.

Other times I take time for myself, to recharge, to study, to ensure that my future goals are met within ranges that I find are acceptable. I’m learning to become disciplined, to become someone who embraces responsibility, understands it and realises the possible repercussions of them. My freedom is directly tied to the respect I give my parents and the tasks they outline me. I see no reason to rebel from their care, to act unruly for no clear reason but to just act unruly. I’m constantly being asked to take time away from my responsibilities at the most inopportune times and it infuriates me.

I’m told that I lack the assertiveness to approach a woman, yet my duties teach me discipline, it teaches me to understand responsibilities and to honor those responsibilities. I’m happy to release myself from responsibilities and take a break, to relax and to do things for myself, but soon enough I will return to my old dutiful ways and respect the power in this household, respect and be respected is the general rule in the house.

Perhaps it’s just this one person who’s so insistent that I relieve myself of responsibilities to play games. It just doesn’t seem appropriate and most people understand that my family is one of the most important things to me. My duties will not be overridden once begun, I complete them to the finest of my ability and I hope this translates to everything else.

Don’t try to pry me away from this. 

Paragon

The highest and most perfect example of something, often used to define the highest possible achievement or perfection. The meaning is derived from diamonds - One that is perfect and without flaws.

“Truly she is a paragon amongst her peers.”

I honestly believe I’m getting fiercely defensive about my uni, I don’t know if this is a bad thing. But I guess it’s pride in the uni you go to I suppose. If I didn’t enjoy what I did and what I’m going to do, I probably wouldn’t be enjoying my time at uni as much.

So when people mock UTS or something along those lines I just get all worked up and mad. I like it, it’s where I study, it’s where I’ve met heaps of people and it’s always been my list of goals. I mean, I’ve completely overlooked the whole “Ugliest building” remark, just because I’m almost always inside so I can’t see what anyone’s complaining about. We have our own issues internally and what not. But I mean, in my experience, it’s been a lot better organisation ways compared to UWS. In the administration/organisation sense I mean, UWS is an okay uni - People just give it too much shit for having “Western Sydney” in the title.

But yeah, I like my uni and though it feels like I’m just going to school with longer commute times, I enjoy it. That’s all that matters and I shan’t let other people’s opinions about my uni bother me all that much. It’s so petty, it’s like the way you made fun of the neighbouring schools in the area when you were younger and you’d get all riled up about it.

I’m happy here, and overlooking any issues I find, I’m having a grand ol’ time. c:

So, I’ve received some of my assessments back and completed some presentations. According to my schedule for uni, I don’t have any more assessments for the next three weeks. I’m healing faster from that earlier aggravated tendon two weeks ago and I’m skating again.

I have a fun run of 10km in about two weeks and I have yet to ready myself seeing as I can only do 6km at full limits. But it’s okay if I end up walking some of that course, I’d rather have my body in a moderate condition rather than break it again. I’m listening to it better and it feels good, stretch when you need to, rest when you have to, run when you have a good solid feeling. I need to take care of myself because seriously, running is causing tons more damage than skating is at the moment.

I pick up scuffs, scratches and grazes but that’s fine. I’m going down to the Sydney City Bombsquad soon enough. Last time I went I was fairly inexperienced, but with skating so often and so hard I think I should survive. I just need to make sure I stay composed, the route is something I’m moderately familiar with. But I’ll learn from my fellow skater, I’m excited for the next couple of weeks. I’ll take a break now and then get back to studying.

Things are going fairly well, that and there’s a girl I’ve set my sights on. Vivid is coming up. You do the math. I’m excited for the rest of May. c: